偶聊起残缺美，发现自己对任何美好的实物均报以强烈的不满，无论电影、电视或书本，但凡过于完美的情节都将被我抨击，总认为如果过程是美好的，就自然应该有遗憾的结局，亦或可以接受团圆结果，则过程必须经历万千坎坷才能让我等心里舒服些。如此狭隘的心理，我相信与我类似的人不在少数，究竟是怎么了，完美变得仿佛天理难容，让生活在现实中的我们无法接受，也懒得去憧憬。明知这种心理有些变态，也无法阻止自己，所以就让我们继续残缺下去吧，既然生活中的爱情、工作和家庭永远无法完美，总有残缺，只能勉强自己去体会这残缺美。

回来不为其他，就是为了无病呻吟而无病呻吟一番。

看着从前的自己，发觉自己原来是如此无病呻吟一小女子。在这个人人无病呻吟的世界里，我突然变得不会无病呻吟了，是变得快乐无比了吧，我宁愿真的如此。

不来这里的原因还因为写的东西都给别人看到了，就像被脱光了衣服，有人说写不就为了让人看，而且看的人越多越满足。可我一点也没被满足，尽满足了别人，所以我决定也常常往别人SPACE里踩踩，顺便真正满足一把。

夜深了人就语无伦次，我只想牵着你，走到很远的梦里，飞啊飞，飞到爱情的泡泡里～

 

两个字－－罗嗦！

 

 

在我宣告了我的第一次减肥计划后，我在此放弃，不是没有毅力，是突然觉得折磨自己减肥是没有意义。我可以嫌自己胖，但是不能虐待自己的胃。你可以是说这是借口，可能我真的太辛苦了，我要释放，就算把自己吃成一个大胖子。呵呵～OVER~

 

04.25 Rebecca & Seacy's birthday party

出席人员: 众多

活动地点: 钱柜静安店

HIGH到爆棚,少儿不宜!详情请参见相册.哈哈~~~~

还有一天是我的生日了,又是一个人的生日,但是我知道很多人心里惦记着我,今天决定给我的SPACE换件新衣服,希望我的心情也从黑白变成彩色,这就是SUMMER该有的颜色.

换了新的床单,新的浴巾,买了新的睡衣,SPACE也换新的衣服,今年的生日开始,什么都要重新开始!

N久N久没来这里拉,有心事的时候就喜欢整理房间,今天恶狠狠的整理了我的鞋子,发觉色彩丰富,我真是太浪费了,太浪费了!!先晒晒部分集体照吧.

 

 

今年冬天的第二场雪，上海的雪总是短暂而含蓄的。其实年年上海都有细细小雪，几年也没有例外，前两年每逢下雪，我都不在上海，心中总以为上海已经没有雪了呢。即便像如此小的雪也让我兴奋。今年的冬天好像又特别冷，让我不得不进入冬眠状态。大脑和身体都进入了暂时休眠，期待能把我唤醒的人。

 

新加坡回来已经半个月了，懒到连写游记的动力也没有。回往那温暖的一周好似在梦中发生，不过依然怀念新加坡的惬意，新加坡的美食，新加坡的气候，当然还有新加坡的SALSA和AMAZING CHRISTMAS. 第一次在夏天过christmas， 记忆中留下的是汗水的气味和黑压压的人群，不知是好是坏，不可否认这一切有些疯狂。如果可以，我还愿意回到那个小小的国家，过一段惬意无忧的日子。

昨夜赶上了《Snow Show》的末班车，终于感受了这场奇幻舞台剧的无穷魅力。那是一个童年的梦想，一刹那我仿佛回到了幼时，原来每个人心中都有这么一个童话的世界，一不小心就陷入。用孩子们的心去体会这场梦，或许会得到更意外的收获。

Snow是今年我看过最amazing的show,有丑角大师的绝佳演技，更有大手笔的舞台制作，前所未有的互动让我惊喜又惊喜，你永远不知下一秒会发生什么。当空中飘着雪，我希望我的心也有纯净的那一刻。当暴风雪来袭，窒息的感觉也随之而来。最后推向观众的五彩大雪球，将整晚演出推向高潮，所有的人都冲向前，彼此打着雪仗，滚动着雪球。这是回到而是的梦，是一个让人不舍的BIG PARTY。

 

最近运气甚好，等待许久的美国VISA面签顺利通过，想买的衣服突然打折，总是能顺利打到TAXI。

很想离开这里，如果可以，流浪到很远的地方，无论那里，至少暂时离开。

2007.11.21

Trader Vic's

Amilie's farewell party

All the salsa dancers in Shanghai

今天是Amilie的farewell party, 大多的上海salsa dancer都来道别，大家像往常一般舞蹈。Amilie讲述着在上海这一年多的经历。我曾带着这个法国女人去各地WORKSHOP,有时为她的生活小事困扰，有时为她的困扃生活而担忧，也有时觉得她是个麻烦的人。无论如何，这个让我SALSA成长,为上海SALSA努力过的女人，此时此刻让我不舍，当我拥抱着她时，有种掉泪的冲动的，不知下次何时才能相见的感觉真的不是滋味。我会想念你，我们都会想念你，因为你为我们带来过快乐，也为上海的SALSA付出过。希望能再次在中国见到你，我的真心祝愿，为我那未流下的眼泪。See you!

离别总是让人心伤。。。。。。

最近的生活有些凌乱，有些人匆匆走入了我的生活，有些人又匆匆的离开，也有些来了不舍得走的，更多的是无关的人。我不知我应该留下谁，我又希望留下谁。我想结果最终还是我想留的留不住，不想留的却一直在。

最近的心情很DOWN,因为遇到了一个不负责任的人，另有一个莫名其妙的人，还有一个不知所云的人。每天还在遇到各种不同的人，大家也不要轻易在我这里对号入座。

 

这周几乎每天可以看话剧，只要找到合适的人，做什么都不会孤单，可以一起看话剧，一起压马路，一起吃蛋糕。。。。。。。（小S介绍的蛋糕店一定要去，就算一个人吃不完也没关系）

 

杨过同学终于婚完拉，众多SALSA好友都前往祝贺，杨过表示正常婚礼他都好紧张，当天新娘表现也很好，两个小孩被我们大家整的不是一个‘惨’字可以形容的，但是倒是异常的配合。那天我和LISA穿着在越南做的，一直没机会穿的越南国服‘袄代’前往婚礼，小小的惹眼了一下，两个小丫头也趁机大敖造型。小S当日也应该得个优秀着装奖，亮眼蓝色旗袍＋蓝色绣花鞋，让我好是喜爱。HOHO

从日本回来已经一个星期了，每天都在忙东忙西的，一直没时间空下来写我的日本日志，也有不少朋友催我拉，真是对不起大家呀。所以今天终于抽空整理了一下日本行的照片，先让大家赏赏，稍后送上我的简单日志，大家担待拉。
在日本买了好多吃的～
在日本泡了好多次汤～
在日本花了好多钱～
在日本再次遇到HERMES丝巾展～（和中国的一样美丽动人）
在日本的还有很多很多。。。。

假期第4天了，每天都在睡觉，闲逛中度过，原来假期也只有如此。今天心血来潮，拾起我喜爱的DIY小屋，把自己所有的幻想注入其中，或许有一天我也会是童话中的公主，住进那神秘的城堡和浪漫的小木屋......

 

神奇之旅，艰辛也总是在一开始……

 

 

原来美丽的童话也是由碎片拼凑而成，完美的结局也都经过不完美的过程……

我的梦中小屋由我建造，我的梦也只有由我自己去实现吧。

 

总有一天我会踏上梦中的阶梯，爬到云端看星星......

 

今天的DIY小屋很快完工，突然觉得梦想实现的好快，也变得不真实，原来我还在梦中......

  

 

顺便SHOW一下我梦中的城堡吧。。完工好久了，苦于无人一同欣赏，只能在家中积灰拉。

 

甜甜很兴奋的说美术馆的HERMES‘锦绣梦想’很棒，便叫上美美一同前往，谁知懒惰的美美把我们抛弃。周六一早，天下朦朦细雨，甜甜问是否还去呢，我回说一切照旧，风雨无阻。让甜甜等了我一小会，开始了我们的丝巾王国之旅......

 

Entrance

那是一个夏夜，皎洁的月光下，我打开邮件。信封上的邮票告诉我，这是一封来自巴黎的信，令我备感意外。写信与我的人只可能是我的叔叔，一位总是充满奇异思想的冒险家，不过他同时也还是讲故事的高手。

在信中他向我叙述了一个来自古老中国，具有传奇色彩的故事

One moonlit summer’s night, I was opening my post, and was surprised to see a letter stamped from Paris. It could only be from my uncle, an eccentric adventurer, and storyteller beyond compare.

He had sent me a strange legend from ancient China.

 

那一次   Once upon a time

很久很久以前，在一个遥远的国度，有一个小村庄，那是纺丝业的故乡，丝绸文明的发源地。在一个晴朗的天气里，村里的一个小男孩来到周围的山岭上散步，尽情享受着大自然带给他的美好时光。

突然，小路的拐弯处有一个不知名的东西出现在他的眼前，灰灰的，坚硬的有些像石头，但是绝不是石头。不谙危险的男孩，浑然不知前方等待他的是什么。

Once upon a time, in a land faraway, a little boy was walking in the hills which surrounded his village, beyond the silk farms and weavers’ workshops. It was a fine day and the boy was transported by the beauty of nature.

Suddenly, at a turn in the path, he came upon something strange which looked like a large grey monolith, hard as stone and yet not stone. Overcoming his fear, he approached it.

 

精致的力量  A Delicate Strength

迎接他的是一只巨大的红色鸟蛋，悬挂在丝绸笼子里，仿佛在那儿等了他很久。他刚想伸手去触摸，蛋壳突然碎裂了，一只红色鸟儿破壳而出。它那华丽的翅膀上长满了丝质的羽毛。实在太不可思议了，小男孩简直无法相信自己的眼睛。

A majestic red egg seemed to have been waiting there since the dawn of time, suspended in a cage of silk. When he stretched out his hand to approach it, the shell suddenly broke in two, and a red bird came out. Its magnificent wings were entirely overlaid with silken feathers. The child was so astonished that he could barely believe his eyes.

 

随风飘扬  Flight

神奇的鸟儿跟着小男孩回到了村庄。村民们跳起了传统的红绸舞，欢庆鸟儿的到来。在热烈舞蹈中，鸟儿翅膀上落下几片羽毛……

The fantastic bird went to the village with the child. The villagers celebrated his arrival with traditional songs and dances, complete with many twirling ribbons. During the excitement of the dance, the red bird lot some feathers……

 

草图及色块  Sketch and Splash

鸟儿意识到，它所看到的这个世界完全与众不同。在它看来，所有这些事物的形状均源自色彩斑斓的色块。它觉得好奇怪，因为没有人与它的视角相同。

The bird realized that the world appeared differently to him. The shapes he saw all left colored   impressions. It seemed odd to him that nobody else had this sensation.

 

充满象征的游戏  Symbolic Games

庆典中，村民们为神鸟专门发明了一款关于白色小蛋的游戏（有人认为这也许就是高尔夫球的祖先！）

During the festivities, the villagers invented a game in his honour using little white eggs(some of which this later may have become the ancestors of the famous game of golf!)

 

味道好极了  Yum-Yum

村民们拿出最精细的碗碟，大摆筵席，为神鸟接风洗尘。丰富的菜肴堆成了小山。

此从神鸟来到之后，整个村庄都有了变化。人们更高兴了，风景的色彩也更斑斓了。

男孩突然明白，那天，就在他触摸红色鸟蛋的瞬间，也为这神奇的鸟儿赋予了生命。

The gave a great feast in his honour of the finest they had to offer. The variety of course was like veritable mountains of food.

After the arrival of the bird, the village was transformed, more joyful and colourful than before.

The child realized that in having laid his hand on the red egg, he had brought into being an extraordinary creature.

 

世界之光  The light of the World

夜深了，神鸟睡了，又落下几片羽毛。沉睡中，它做起了不可思议的梦，仿佛用一种独特的视角看着整个世界。大陆的形状变成了发光的蚕茧，在蓝色海洋中飘荡起伏。蚕茧喷射出彩色的光芒，将整个世界紧紧联系在一起。所有的一切显得那么的真实而神奇。

Late at night, the bird went to lie down, shedding a few more feathers, and had some amazing dreams. He took in the entire world with on look. The continents had taken the shape of luminous silk bubbles, floating in vast blue oceans. Their coloured light burst forth and seemed to connect all worlds. Everything appeared to him very real and yet at the same time fantastic.

 

少数民族丝绸绣片  Ethnic squares of silk

第二天一早，神鸟急着想破解自己的梦。它试着用专为节日庆典而制的苗族丝绸绣片，向男孩描述自己的梦境。然而，男孩却无法理解，只是建议神鸟去拜见神灵，好为它解梦释疑。

In the morning, seeking to understand his dream, he tried to describe it to the child by means of the silk scarves which had been made for the festivities. But, failing to understand, the child advised his friend to go to consult the oracle to reveal the mystery.

 

长廊  Long corridor

神鸟立刻出发， 穿过云彩，飞了很久很久，沿途只有几只风筝和它擦肩而过。几片红色羽毛随风飘扬。飞翔在空中的鸟儿俯视着大地上发生的一切。它看见友爱与帮助，但也看见人与人之间的不理解和冷漠。

The bird set out immediately, crossing the long distances over the clouds, passing only a few kites on his way. Several more red feathers fluttered away in the wind. From the sky he observed what was happening below. He saw love and fraternity, but also ignorance and lack of understanding.

 

骑士圆舞曲  The Jockeys Circle

最后，神鸟来到骑士之神生活的森林。神灵飞翔在池塘上空，他的警世高深莫测：“你的命运就是超越自己的极限，凭直觉去飞翔，去理解你眼中的世界。旅行的终点就是你命运的终结。”

At last, he arrived in the forest where lived the oracle of the sky riders. Gliding over a pool, the great master expressed himself cryptically:’ Your destiny is to travel according to your whim, above and beyond your limits, in order to gain an understanding of the world. The end of your journey will be the fulfillment of your destiny.’

 

抚摸我  Touch me

神鸟决定沿着山路开始自己的旅程，它飞得很高很高，以致夜幕降临时，它已筋疲力尽。幸好，它找到了一座小木屋歇脚。

The bird decided to begin his journey then and there, from the mountain, and he flew so high that by nightfall he was exhausted. Fortunately he found shelter in a well-placed log cabin.

 

目标迈阿密  Direction: Miami

清晨，大雪飞扬，连续几天都不停，神鸟无法继续旅程。困在小木屋里的它想起那些遥远的国度，色彩斑斓……特别是阳光充沛的地方！

第三个晚上，天空终于放晴，繁星闪烁。

神鸟透过窗户，看着流星从空中穿过，心中思索着该如何帮助人们更好地互相理解。

By morning, snow was falling thickly, and for several days the bird was unable to continue his journey. Alone in the cabin, he fell to dreaming of far off lands, more exotic……and above all, with more sun!

On the third night the heavens finally cleared, and the stars appeared in their millions.

The bird, looking out of the window, watched the shooting stars and wondered what he could do to help mankind better to understand themselves.

 

原始色彩  Text of primary colors

在一只被遗忘的包里，神鸟发现了一篇介绍五原色的手稿。神鸟顿时明白，色彩的融合会带来更多为多元与丰富的世界。它的理解便是教会人们学会分享与交流。

In a discarded old sack, the bird found a scripture speaking of the 5 primary colours. He realized that through combining colours, great richness and variety can be achieved. He aim then became to communicate to mankind the need to share and exchange.

 

图像的力量  The Graphical Force

第二天清晨，雪终于停了。整个世界变成只有黑和白两种颜色。它决定再次出发。在翅膀的扑腾中，它终于展翅翱翔。当它回望飞过的路时，它突然发现，风景回复了往日的色彩，显得是那么的与众不同。它还发现自己的羽毛变成了跟随自己的一条闪烁的轨迹。

The next morning, it stopped snowing, and the world appeared entirely black and white. He decided to set off again, and with a flapping of his wings took flight. As he retraced his steps to see the way he had come, he noticed that colour had returned to the landscape, It had been completely transformed. He also noticed that his feathers had made a dotted track which marked his way.

 

中国韵律  The Rhythm of China

飞到更高处，神鸟明白，它在大地上所见的一切都是地球上的一部分。从高处看下来，所有的国家，从东方到西方，彼此间显得如此靠近。

Gaining height, he realized that the wealth of detail that he could see below was part of the world’s grand plan. From this height, all countries from Ease to West seemed very close to one another.

 

无尽的纤细  A Boundless Subtlety

神鸟越飞越高，整个世界展现在它面前。它停了下来，终于明白，这无尽的世界，虽巨大而美妙，却无法赐予它所要寻找的答案。

Climbing ever higher, the universe stretched before him. The bird stopped, finally realizing that such an infinity, gigantic and magnificent, could not hold the answer to his quest.

 

Room 14,15,16,17

于是，神鸟重回大地，投入无尽的世界，决意鼓励人们彼此关爱，互相帮助。

神鸟从一个国度飞到另一个国度，邂逅了身着旋转舞裙的异国舞者们、巨大的野兽群、著名的科学家们，逐一向他们介绍自己的理念。它的直觉如同女神，引领它去到一个又一个远方海市蜃楼。

那条羽毛长线，仍然跟随着它，使得它每次展翅都倍感无力。

So he returned to earth, towards this infinity of detail, with a fervour to encourage all people to join together and to help one another.

The bird went from country to country, again meeting exotic dancers in flowing skirts, huge animals, and renowned scientists, to teach his idea. Intuition guided him everywhere, appearing to him in the hazy form of a woman showing a mirage on the horizon.

He was still leaving behind a trail of feathers, which was making him steadily weaker with each beat of his wings.

 

在风中  Riding the Waves

神鸟飞越一片片大地，还有无垠的海洋，为的是邂逅更多的人。羽毛长线始终跟随着它，将天空染成红晕一篇。

The bird covered land and sea in his quest to find people. And always, the trail of feathers followed him, covering the sky with a red glow.

 

丝绸武术  Martial Silk

最后，神鸟失落了自己漂亮的羽毛，但仍然没有完成所有的使命，在昏睡中慢慢老去。它的灵魂升上蓝天，任最后一片羽毛自由自在地飞翔在云彩之间。尽管人们尚有冲突，神鸟的理想却永世长存，轻轻飘落在士兵的军刀上，但却丝毫不曾害怕。

Finally, having lost its beautiful feathers but without to have entirely achieved its mission, the bird fell asleep. Its psyche went up through the sky where its last feather flew free and intact in the clouds. In spite of violences which continued in the world, the ideas of the bird survived, slipping sliding on the sabers of the warriors, without never suffering from them.

 

艺术影片《若汐》

当年发现那只蛋的男孩早已成长为英俊的王子。他继承了神鸟的理想，从一个国度到另一个国度，努力沟通人类。在梦中，他见到了那神奇的鸟儿，轻柔有如一方绢布，他和神鸟翩翩起舞，整整一夜。

The boy who had discovered the egg was now a young prince. He fought for the ideas of the bird traveling from country to country in hope to connect the people. In his dreams, he saw the magic animal light like a silk fabric, and they danced together during all the night.

 

尾声  Conclusion

在整个旅行过程中羽毛所留下的轨迹就构成了丝绸之路，将东方与西方紧紧相连，让文化得以传播与交流。

叔叔的故事讲完了，他建议我去周游世界，睁大眼睛看世界……第二天我就要动身飞去上海，为的是追寻红鸟所留下的丝绸轨迹……

The trace, that the feathers had left throughout the initiatory travel, become the Road of Silk, connecting the East to the Occident and allowing the exchange and the sharing of the knowledge.

In concluding his story, my uncle advised me to travel and discover the world, and to keep my eyes wide open. The very next day I took an aeroplane to Shanghai, to follow the silk trail left by the red bird.

Hilton McConnico

 

 

凌晨1：14，一个人在家喝多了，对被我骚扰到的人表示道歉，我控制不住自己。对不起！我渴望什么，有些人知道，有些人不明白，能给我快乐的人总会出现。

 

今天是KEVIN的生日，祝他生日快乐，每天能象现在这样，就算艰辛也感到幸福。加油吧！我想尽力帮助你！

感谢RENA今天陪我聊天到深夜，感谢无数今夜被我骚扰过的人，你们都不嫌弃我，因为你们心里都有我，我还是被人爱着的。我无怨无悔。。。。

晚上回家，又无心睡眠，开始看朋们的BLOG，无意间发现了GENE很久以前的一篇BLOG《谢谢你们杀掉了我在上海的寂寞》，那是去年的7月，我学SALSA还不到1年，也还算小半个新人，当时前辈们给了我很大的鼓励和动力，让我越来越热爱SALSA，以至现在无法自拔了。在此转载几段，希望GENE不要向我收版权费。当时的她们和现在她们都有了不少变化，好多人都进步了，当然也包括我。。。。（以此感谢同样陪伴我们共同成长的上海男士们！）

 

好久没在上海的SALSA PARTY出现，大家都以为我息舞了，呵呵。见到我都是一句，‘好久不见啊，都去哪了呀？’，我微笑，原来我一直在杭州混着呢。我上个月几乎大半月在杭州，整天私混于杭州的SALSA PARTY。虽然杭州有我喜爱的朋友们，上海的SALSA朋友也让我怀念，所以决定重返故乡怀抱。今天跳的还算尽兴，虽然音乐一开始不佳，但后来应要求有所改善，让我们过瘾的MANBO一把。在人走的差不多之后和GENE跳了几曲，感觉依然很好。对于SALSA我终究还是离不开内心的感觉，对PARTNER的感觉，对音乐的感觉，同时到位了才能发挥的淋漓尽致。今天的总结报告是：上海的SALSA，我回来了！